Welcome. I’m new at this whole blog thing as of this October 2009. What you are about to read contains mostly random thoughts and writings, fiction, poetry and commentary on what it is to be a Millennial in the 21st Century.
I am a young woman who only hopes to keep exploring, keep learning and documenting as I go. Being able to share this with you is truly a pleasure.
Thank you for visiting and I hope you enjoy what you find here.
Hearing the rain come down outside the window, I pretend I can see inside the droplets. They cling 40 stories in the air, reflecting the world outside and holding the weight of it all in a tiny sphere. Pausing in their fall from the sky, some of them took a moment before falling downward into nothing.
My eyes bore a hole through the windows into the rain.
Whatever happened to bring this piece of time to where it is makes no sense. I shudder, realizing where I am. Looking around the unlit hotel suite, I almost chuckle: opulence to captivity.
Who is this man sleeping and wrapping his arms around me? Back again and with the same questions: What gave me the right to live in these castles in the sky, where only the powerful people enjoy life?
The world outside is angry. I want one of the drops to take me along for the fall. Imagine being smashed to smithereens on the sidewalk below. I close my eyes and suck in the darkness, smelling hotel sheets and heat. The only thing that seems real is the rain. No one cares that I am afraid.
It begins hitting like a ton of bricks. A drop of water becomes a tsunami. No one notices. Holding my breath to the sound of rain, that pain inside simmers to a boil.
The body next to mine may be warm. The cloudburst held against windows. Outside, this little glass world towers above a frenetic city. The sound of rain may be soft, the taxi cabs and other noise shut out, but the sound of his breathing, deafens.
Why am I still hearing the drone of an anchor’s voice, the weight of the world on my heart? Cold.
The world outside is angry. The world inside me, ice cold.
I imagine all this held in a single raindrop. It almost helps.
I know I am not safe.